A very special choice.

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I Still would have chosen you - By Terri Banish.

If before you were born,
I could have gone to heaven and saw all the beautiful souls,
I still would have chosen you... ... ...
If God had told me, "This soul would one day need extra care and needs", I still would have chosen you
If He had told me, "This soul may make your heart bleed", I still would have chosen you
If He had told me, "This soul would make you question the depth of your faith", I still would have chosen you
If He had told me, "This soul would make tears flow from your eyes that could fill a river", I still would have chosen you
If He had told me, "This soul may one day make you witness overbearing suffering", I still would have chosen you
If He had told me, "All that you know to be normal would drastically change", I still would have chosen you
Of course, even though I would have chosen you, I know it was God who chose me for you.



Case is a beautiful soul. More beautiful than most anything I've ever seen. We are blessed to call him our son. We have never regretted, never suffered because of his differences, never asked for a different child. He is perfect for us.<3

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  1. CorinneApril 16, 2012 at 2:45 PM

    Oh Liz. I am bawling. Just the other day I said to my husband, I know that our lives would be easier if we didn't have Samuel, but not better. I wouldn't change a thing. And now here is your poem and your lovely words. Thank you.
    Corinne

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