What I would tell you...

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To my two oldest daughters. Meredith Rae and Samantha Lynn. This is what I would tell you if I could text you after you got on the bus in the morning...I'm sorry you had to run to catch it. I'm sorry you almost miss it 3 out of 5 days a week. Thanks for being patient with me while I try to split my time and energy a million ways. I'm sorry I can't chaperone your field trips and volunteer at your schools much now that your brother doesn't have day nursing hours. Thanks for stepping up. For helping out. For being wise beyond your years. Thanks for understanding and loving our "dates" even if they are usually just to the grocery store. Thanks for not minding too much when your homework helper is distracted by a beeping pump, vomit and important phone calls. Thanks for growing in wisdom and understanding that different isn't defective, different is beautiful. I wish you could stay home from school and cuddle me all day like Lainey but I know that school is where you belong right now. I love you two. My bigs. My buddies. My sweet, grown up 7 and 8 year olds. You two are very special. Thanks for being great.
Samantha, 7 and Meredith, 8
Sam and mom on a "date".
Meredith and tiny Case.
Samantha and tiny Case.
Momma and "momma" Meredith.

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  1. AnonymousNovember 13, 2012 at 7:45 AM

    They are great little girls and you can tell how much they are loved, how they are taught to love each other and adjust to adversity. Although your interaction with them can not be the most ideal, it can be sweet, purposeful and meaningful!!

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