Going. Going. Going. Gah!
Lately it's been just that. I'm going and going and going..Between Case's fever, poop troubles, all of his care and 3 other needy children there's not much rest for momma. At the end of the day I feel totally exhausted. As I lay in bed I let the things that didn't go my way go and thank god for all that I'm blessed with. As I prepare for yet another surgery on my sweet boy's body (this Wednesday) I feel oddly at peace. This is surgery number 5 not including his GJ tube placements or any other procedure he's gone through. No, it's not fair for a not quite two year old to have endured So. Incredibly. Much already. To know pain daily and to live hooked up to tubes. But I think of the Spiderman quote, "With great power comes great responsibility." Case has a God given power to spread joy, open hearts and bring peace without words. He does this and expects nothing in return. He is incredible. A hero. The least I can do is be strong for him and when I feel like my straight is fading I look to a bigger power. The one who knew what he was doing when He made Case Case.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.